Frustration

Frustrations just build up, until something happens, something small and insignificant, and that pushes you off the edge and then you explode.

Yes, that was the kind of day I had yesterday, to be brutally honest. I was coping very well so I thought, got on with my day, in my neutral state. No dramas, just peace and tranquility. Then as the day progressed, I forced myself to do something that in hindsight I should have left well alone, I felt pressured to do it, even if I wasn't competent in that task.

Oh boy did that mistake escalate, one hour later I was on the verge of tears, nothing I could do to salvage it, and I needed to be elsewhere, and I am never late. So that compounded to my mistake and when I finally left, disappointed with myself. I waited for the bus.. the hot tears then came, and came..

Two hours later I was still crying, as I went down the spiral of negative thoughts, the ones that challenge the core of you, yes those ones, I got such a heavy feeling in my heart, it was so painful, as I fed my negative emotions, as they grew and took a life of their own.

Only when my husband stopped me, did I calm down, geez that took a while.

When you bottle things up, eventually this pressure with surface and explode, the only way for it to release is up, so when you least expect it, be prepared for the explosion. Let it go, scream, cry be emotional, you need this release.

For whatever reason, out of your frustrations come the calming notion that all is ok, and that you will get over it, you get perspective and you become the positive person you were that morning.